you had freckles across your cheeks, i had cracked veins down mine.
remember our traffic teddy bear? we ripped his left ear so long ago i can’t remember the year. but it was
spring and we both wanted to play with it. back then, we didn’t get along so we played army. the territory
we both wanted was the teddy bear. it lost a bit of West. we started hiding most precious things where he’s
tangled intestines would’ve been. then we grew up. we started hiding packs of cigarettes and lighters,
passing him from onea nother. then you started hiding more. you had won that territory unfair and kept it
for yourself. it killed you.
remember playing battleships on the train? the way people were eating and smoking and we’d just
play. and you’d cheat and i couldn’t’ve cared less because i had you. it was all i needed back than. then i
started needing trust and you needed cigarettes. i needed love you needed treatment.i wanted hope you
wanted death. i never got what i wanted but you, you of all men got death. and it wasn’t even your fault.
remember playing cards in the bathtub?
remember actually fitting in it?
remember the thousands of flowers we must’ve murdered? you said that when you’d die, you wouldn’t
want people murdering flowers for you. unaware of your wish, people stopped murdering flowers short after
you passed away.
remember that night with the cleArest sky? how we’d count shooting stars and satellites and how we
saw that meteorite crossing the sky. how you said it was that woman’s soul, the lady in the house across
the field, who was shot minutes before thAt meteorite flew. maybe you were right.
somehow, the night you died, i saw a shooting star. a small sparkle of hope up there. for some
reason, it never finished that arch they make across the dark sky.
for some reason, i want it to finish it.
so get out of my kitchen and go greet the angels, they’re dying to meet you and i’m dying to miss
i love you, until the universe falls apart.