Tuesday, November 24, 2009

why use nothing when we had everything?

it was something i've only heard of on TV and read about in some med books. surprisingly, i never showed interest in it even though it was about blood. i have had my passion for blood for a while, and i couldn't imagine how it could harm anyone lethally. i was amused by the idea that it could cause death in such a slow, painful way.it was the day mark cut his arm when, ironically, i stopped showing any kind of interest in medicine. ruby, diluted liquid kept running down his tanned arm, and i had no idea how to stop it. he had though, because apperently he's had this for a while.after the blood stopped running, he made me sit down.i couldn't sit in a straight position, so i just layed in the wet grass, waiting for tomorrow.he whispered to me words that would make anyone smile, but i couldn't do that anymore.all i wanted was to remember what that was, if what happens to him can be cured.it couldn't. mark died of leukemia that december, and i wasn't even there for him. all i wanted was him to sing carols with me, but i suppose the angels are pretty glad he's there, to delight them with his soft voice.and i hope his lips are not chapped and pale anymore, i hope his eyes glisten in that hoary shade of them like they used to when he was a kid.i hope he's one of them.

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

bring that back.

i liked how he'd play with me hair when i used to bite his tongue.

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

vreau o zi de iulie şi o lună de august.

Thursday, November 5, 2009

come back .

not talking to you makes me have nightmares...

photo by sourcow.

come make my day.

pentru ca azi am primit ciocolata negra si frunza de menta separat de la cineva de care uitasem.

pentru ca e genul de lucru care ma face sa zambesc necontrolat.

auzi, tu.
photo by ~roux-s