Tuesday, February 23, 2010

wake me up.

that awkward feeling you get when you realise someone is actually gone.
not necessarily dead, just, out of your life.
that moment when you realise nothing could ever bring them back, at least no the same they were before.
that one moment you realise it, you don't actually feel like crying.
it's just a terrible relief feeling, like something is out of your mind, forever.
but then you realise your mind is sometimes controlled by your heart, and you can't just take someone out of your heart.
you realise no matter what you do, there'll still be those little things that remind you of them instantly, those things that bring up memories to the amnesic persons, those things that makes you smile and cry inside at the same time, the cliché 'your heart is skipping a beat' saying, the knot tied in your stomach, the 'urghhhh get out of my freaking mind' feeling.
well, i get that feeling daily. and i've lost two persons, so double that, with knots. and it feels like crap and i just miss you.

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